Smoking cigarettes like a fiend right now. Puked a little, just saliva truly.

maybe the reason I cannot go pray to tozenji is simply the blessings would be too big? I am content and hope I am not making it up that there will be a nice funeral and our ashes billy and i will be buried there. It would in truth be so superb. And I am amazed God inspires me to think this is what we'll get, billy and I. I thought my body would be tossed since we have no money right now.