I am a bit mundane tonight due to homelife.

but I wish you could all hear Khechog whisper in tibetan prayers or poetry to beautiful bells and music. i am coming back to my core. The bell is being rung. May all sentient beings attain enlightenment in this very lifetime whether through visions or flash enlightenment like I had once without drugs at all.

I prefered my visions because they lasted way longer and were superbly fertile in stories and special effects rather than empty unity I had as I think Flash enlightnenment in 2005. Everything was connected by sound: the neighbours asking a question was answered by a random stranger in the street way outside though no one but me had heard the neighbour. The whole of the city outside and in my apartment became one. It was complete harmony of the surroundings and emptiness lucidity. It was wild and did not last very long.

The visions I had in here for about two years were stupendous. my mind was on a supernatural trip and I hallucinated or had visions at the time, none of which shocked me too too much but maybe they did in a wonderful way only and emotions ran high. I simply meditated throughout it all and it made amazing  wisdom sense to me and beautiful visions. Love and compassion were in all of them though I felt like BJG was the devil at some point and i was talking to him. I was simply talking to his stone ego. But hallucinating being talking to a slave trade guy from the amazon in soul and spirit. I guarantee you this has NOTHING to do with brian's life- this was my mind on a trip while talking to him and I was very ill and very visionary. I imagined panthers in my backyard on a stromy night, this was exactly the feeling (the amazon became my yard), I practice hot yoga under piles of hot blankets completely covered and had visions in my eyes this time, under the blanket.  I sprung into a visionary story once i told outloud to the candlelight while envisioning I was a 17th century native nun teaching kids in the new world. Everywhere was an orange light in such visions as the native nun.....I envisioned total bliss and felicity and compassion for 10 days way way back, around 2015, at the peak of harsdhips with hubby. I had found God, quite simply, and was on a TOTAL mind trip with Her. hallelujah! But also, lets explain the partial why of all this: I was tempering with my meds for the first and only time in 17 years.