But I have accused of the worst filth (i.e. stealing from the church), the nicest volunteer I ever saw at a temple. No proof, nothing, just pur ereandom gut feeling and wanting to say something. This is odious truly but part of my disease. 

Amyway, point is, I cannot go back to pray to that temple, this is too shameful for me. I felt like the energy was too strong last time and I could not go either for this reason. Maybe Tozenji buddha amhitahbba had seen what i would accuse the nice staff of doing when it was truly not obvious nor true. And refused me the entry to the shrine a third time...Sigh. om muni muni mahamuni svoha

The Tibetan gyuto monks are singing right now.