Yes, i must admit, I would not mind trying glamour and religion to see it , though I had flashes and it was rather dispiriting- everyone is so polite to you you never know their minds. But you have one duty: spread the tibetan dhamma. I said I had a nun call in this life very strong after bliss visions in 2016. I said to Buddha I wanted to dedicate my next life to Him or Her in nunnery. In gratitude for such ecstatic visions of pure bliss. Also, becuase I have taken a liking to these visions and must continue on the buddhist nun path to fruitful development and growth.

I have no clue why I flashed on being the 15th since many years (about 3-4). If it is simply my ego imagining things, I have no clue nor awareness of it. It felt inspired holy style for sure.