It is really unfortunate I became so sick at 21. i had had everything given to me so I dont know why I got so sick all my life. I had had the wealthy childhood with sports and hobbies and amazing yard. I had had good schooling. I had had the nuns residence for almost 3 years. and then I got sick. I will never know why I was so unhappy as a child. looking at the yard, i see I had everything. Maybe I simply complained too much and hated my mother too much to be reasonable. And that is what made me sick?