They have been gone I think for close to two hours. The crows are cawing in the hood. I feel so discouraged at how very foolish I can become, all the while believing I am being wise when I totally am not!

I dont know why most of my girlfriends never forgave me my insanity way back in BC. in emails. It is a little disappointing to say the least; I was ill! Not vicious!

I have much consciencious soul searching I have to do and should be doing. First, I HAVE to stop to think I am wiser than the average. In fact, I act ultra foolishly. Second, I must make devotional prayers to ask Buddha to help me be very very tolerant for now on of other human beings. If I can change this intolerance into tolerance, I will benefit greatly in my healthy mind and heart and so will others and the world be a better place for it.