Excerpt from tonight'S letter to my drug counselor

'Remember I said I had a lot of 'crazy wisdom' and that is all I had as wisdom truly? In the 60s and 70s, when this tibetan tantric idea was introduced to the west by Chogyam Trungpa (venerated by me as a youth who read his books), it however had led by th e80s to terrible moral misconduct in their organization by the leaders. This scandal has been going on for a long time at Shambala centre in the states.

The way I NOW see it after reading this article (https://tricycle.org/article/encounter-shadow-buddhist-america/) and hearing a nun I adore talk to the 14th dalai lama about it: crazy wisdom can easily become degenerescence of moral principles based of instant gratification. So though I long thought and was told I had a lot of great crazy wisdom full of love in me by indian people and tibetan students of buddhism, i see now it is a lot of bollocks and not at all the way to be living a good buddhist dhamma sober and serious life. 

This was my buddhist and crazy wisdom late fascination now mature statement. 

Thanks for reading. I dont know if you understood much of what I said given you may not know Chogyam turngpa. He died nasty , inconinent and alcoholic until the end of cirrhosis. He was THE master of crazy wisdom in the west for decades. Thank God I suffered a lot too and never kew success at all forever: it would have made me a real degenerate buddhist practicioner otherwise with not much kindness , selflessness and open mindedness.'