Hubby has deep issues with feelin like he constantly is a victim about everything anywhere: with me, at school etc. But I went for a very long walk with Billy under the dripping rain, and realized: I am happy with my animals and God and buddha the most. For this actively engaging peace with Buddha and God I feel , with my animals, I am deeply bowing to Buddha and the universe: Thank you from the bottom of my heart. My mind is truly at peace with God and Buddha. I feel a ton of love in my heart and mind. may THIS be what I end my life on- constant peace with God and buddha and my animals. Om mani peme hung Amen.