I am suddenly super weak today. Physically weak. Am I getting depressed?

I feel like I just want to get deeply wasted today. I am resisting it .

I tend to see everything as drama, so I expect our end to be painful.

Dont ask me why i think of our end demise so much: I am tired I think and we are running out of money. Yes, i have no will power tonight and everything is grey and sad ultimately. such is this temporary mood.

Photo is from april this year 2024.