Decaf is percolating on the stove. the day was very heavy. The reflections today were the most serious I have done in months if not years. Life can get tough even after many years of interesting delicious moments and thread of mindstream. I keep thinking I die young so I avoid knowing more sufferings in this life of me.

A crazyway of dying will mot probably not be mine thouhg most porbably will be lung cancer or emphysema at 67 years old, alone, poor, and decrepit without a penny to my name.