A month ago, I was sure cops would come and beat me up while he was gone to do this. I was nuts but especially terrified from PTSD at these cunts.

I am certainly safe now and should not fear anyone anymore in my own home.

It is amazing how safe I feel, a month later. It is not clear what triggers those terror, specific in certain times of the year.

UPDATE

Hubby is back from his adventure: he sold 4 books out of about 100, for 25$. He bought a new book and pocketed 5$. Our books are smoke stained so booksellers dont want them. And they are not rare: many boosktores already have two copies of some of hubby's books.