If there is one way I will live old age it is most certainly with a stroke.

Elvis is singing on mom's noel gift for noel upcoming. I cant help falling in love with you....he sings. I smoke heavy cigarettes, drink and take meds that triple my chances of strokes. I would take that as punishment for having been so angry and insulting to everyone I ever knew for 4-5 years out west, while ill and then while convalescing later. I totally lack compassion for my loved ones. Every great writer and philosopher I admire says one thing matters on earth to live a good life: be kind, always. I have failed so much at that.