ha ha ha...I just had. aflash ( I had many recently) of me as a child. I had eaten ALL the chocolates for the advent calendar as a young child and debated forever how to tell my mom. This lack of self control is pretty cute in a child. This is what I had not experienced as a vision on human children.  I dont know what my past life was like. It is, as for everyone, a secret. but I bet I had a  duty call to the max, like dying for my children, just before. It is a bit odd how, with so much love, i yet aboslutely stayed away from ever raising anyone except billy and whiskey, simple 1.4 year ol and 8 months old dogs. i saw a wee wee puppy, a little female, today. The dude was a foster. The foster last 3 weeks. He says she is , as all the other pups are, 'puppy therapy'. Not until BC did I actually stop stressing when children where in the vicinity. I go close to no other children. Children were out of my life totally. I dont miss it thanks to flashes of my mind heart as a child, looked after by God.