Yes, but nowhere as tough as many many others.

I had the word . Not everyone does.

because I had the word, many good people heard me.

And helped me.

I will have way tougher challenges to come in my future life- this life was to make me do a big leap.

Trust it everyone: Buddha is there to help you all and God does not ever make us suffer in vain. It is all truly, as the tibetan buddhists say, MERIT.

Feel free to tell god wahetevr you want, even for Him or Her to get bent! Be prepared for punishment physical from that outburts, but know you find God for sure that way. If you are not angry at all at God, then praise him or Her to no end.