It will be the first year they go without two of their good family couples and friends. I think dad is a bit nervous, I seemed to have heard it in his voice.

Mom cleaned up her toenails and put on varnish on them, burgundy of a sort, red brown she said.

She says she will do her hand nails too. Once a year, to go to spain.

I am out of breath tonight from anxiety a bit I think at our future... I have said many many predictions and they are all tragic. So now, though none may be true, I am anxious for no reason.