I really really dont have a call to prayer. It upsets me. Maybe I will just practice love and kindness without praying though it is not as fun and felt for me. I have lost my holiness aura snce this morning. Since realizing my imagination makes of me a stupid fool. Today is a day of repentance to God for wrongs done I cannot remember how long ago before I was born.  God totally lied to me in my imagnination and I chose to believe Her. It made me very happy but very foolish.

I prayed very deep in bed last night for my Good God shepeherd to give me more wisdom always. Because as it is ,I am a silly childlike fool.