19H33. I barely had one shot of ryan's tonight and mostly drink decaf. Not too much pot tonight. This is wiser and more reasonable.

Better.

My mother called me spontaneusly today, which she does here and there throughout the year. Otherwise I call them or they call me back.

Though everyone is foolish that i know, as much as I am at times, I really had a deep prayer for mom and me to one day become enlightened instead of stupid and foolish. may I see her again to love her and even maybe be her daughter or son again in the future. I have had much delightful conversations wiht her too, not just about fancy restaurants like today. She has a divine spark, a fantasy world too, in her mind heart. She is nice but we are all foolish. May we all reach enlightenement one day. Om shanti om!