I am awfully stiff and out of breath.

Hubby is covered in what looks like shingles or chicken pox. The GP could not figure out what he had. I dont know why not. Problematic.

I am so very tense, much more living in samsaric realities today, not awake whatsoever.

Not stone nor drunk either.

I feel hubby will die before me: he is under so much stress and his body is crapping out. Poor hubby. May he live a long healthy life. And especially survive me. It is truly not obvious he will and that worries me much. i am lost without him, as I have no one else to help me in any serious way. May God provide.