The Gyuto monks are singing their peace pujas offerings. I prayed to the shrine and altar tonight to whiskey, tummo and shakyamuni. I even did three full prostrations which left me a bit sore and dizzy. I am so out of shape!

I am confident that we will fare okay in the end. If all goes well, we are done being crazy and neither of us will end up crazy in their end of life. We must learn to be moderate. All my twenties and beginning of my 30s have been super moderate. I must gather this willpower and discipline again. Can hubby follow me on this path if it is our only option in the end?