I have a certain talent for writing, there is no doubt and I may have The word.
I have complete confidence in my capacity to write goosd stories.
As long as no one commands it from me.
It is my personal experience that usually, when you are clinically upset or mad, you are never at peace.
I am only at peace nowadays and have been for a long time.
So I know I am not mad. But I am a weird weird fish as a small saint.