My mind is not at peace nowadays. A change of circumstances maybe.

I thank Virgin Mary for hearing me last night and buddha too, though it was hard to pray to Him. May I truly be wiser by the time I kark. I cannot believe what a fucking fool I can be despite having had super cool visual visions here for two years way back. Because of those visions, I became quite satisfied with ym crazy mind.  But right now, without any visions at all for years (thak god because it is very hard physically too), I just feel like a fucking dumb fool. I have to stick to writing for kids- that is my talent. My only one.