So right now, i feel totally sane again unlike yeserday night.

Oh, it is such a sweet feeling to know you are sane when you have been fucked all your life.

Everyone who has suffere the kind of BS I have as a child needs medication all their lives. But not everyone gets medication. Pray for those who are never healed with medicine despite traumas constant all their youth. that usually makes criminals. Here we go again though I mention no one in particular: meds help even gangsters. I think I am the favourite child saint of a few cool people wh have never tried good meds before.

Notice in my own conscious awareness, i sometimes truly beleive I am deluded or sickly when I reread my rants I have so much fun writing on this blog.

This is not fake. I TRULY beleive it when. i reread it. Usually, that makes me erase the entries. And cry to God that he made a fool out of me. Try fluancol everyone psychotic in the crazy spy world. God reveals Himself to us then as well.