Yea, truly, I let it down yesterday this Buddha day.

My spirit is not very celbratory this week but maybe it could be more devotional. It is a hungry ghosts ceremony this sunday at tozenji. I have been completely mad with them last year. I am much ashamed to show my ugly snout there again even if it is to pray. Also, the energy is really hard for me to accept and handle comfortably. It seemed like a very venerable and nice temple.