Yes, truly, we are in such insecure position in more ways than not that there is no point and real reason valid to ever gloat. I was just going to indulge my intoxication tonight with irish cream and pot and about two packs of smokes so far tonight. This is all since my 30 years old. I had HUGE hospital and cops traumas and became a heavy pot head as soon as I got into it at all at that age.

So turly, the least i can do is not gloat because i am indulging the artificial paradises as beaudelaire called them: the drugs and intoxicants.

By the way, i hav asked for a sober life next. 

The first 25 years of my life were not pot heads at all nor that much drinking.