Yes, truly, all I have been talking about all week is dogs and cats.

No more prayers, not much meditational discussions....

I dont know what it is but I am infinitely sad....and weak in the chest.

I have been waking up that way for two mornings...For the life of me I see no fair reason for this sadness.

Except maybe the stigma of mental illness as opposed to bad moral ethical conducts. It is my dream that whomever blacklisted me be found guilty of much more than just lies about me to the rest of the world of bc spca whenever i want to adopt. I even give money to the spca since 2002, adoption of Jerry. Some peple are truly nuts. Because on top of not being smart, they are fucking nasty.