I feel slightly trapped by minding the healing of Charlotte. Hubby is fucked up today and I dont want to be with him. I tried to alert him to the fact that small things in life, like losing the phone, or having to call the garage, are absolutelynothing to complain about. He would simply be much happier if he accepted the tiny obstacles in his life. He left crying he was a 'bad guy and to leave him alone'. It is a feeling of helplessness on my part when I see his reaction to my comments to actually help him live better and decrease the level of tension.

He told me straight up some people did not need to change. His bloody stubborness and denial of life on earth and its conditions for humans and sentience is mind exasperating.

Basic truths on earth: impermanence and sufferings