Heavy day today with hubby's emotions. I am so tired of him not healing. He has been enraged at times with me, for zero reasons, in the last 20 years. It was tough. But no one can live their whole life treating people so poorly due to anger: He was bound to crack because he is not an  asshole. We are always responsible for our emotions, even when we have a weakness about that emotion. Even when we are so called crazy.

I can say hubby looked pretty ill to me in 2009, in how he treated me at home: always yelling and insulting me and insulting in a nnsense way ('like how I was selfish after I cooked him a meal that took 2 hours when he came back from work'). He cannot seem to regulate his emotions healthily. And now anger has left to give way to total hysteria and crying fit unreasonable. He is way way less sick than I ever was all my life starting at 21. But he still needs meds.