The rage and traumas before was to much to think so clearly as now.So i had radical crazy wisdom to try to express my mind. Pot truly is aboslutely mystical herbal healer material....we dont have to try it at every life forever. But when we do, I guarantee you, if you have no addiction, it is blissful. Addiction in this case would be withdrawal from lack of funds to purchase the pot. Otherwise, it is just a lifestyle in my mind.