Yes truly, all my fucking life.

But this is also why I am so at peace now and wont die in the war, wont see it anyway.

I have lived and suffered plenty. AND learned from it that God is my shepherd. He may have ordered nasty natsy things for me in this life, but I know he loves me unconditionnally and only wants me to awaken one day like buddha shakyamuni. Dont ever hold a grudge against God but feel free to ask for an explanation...If you are wise, you will understand why you suffer. And become holy.

go, nudism!