We lost a cat: fat Hardy. Laurel is inside. Where is fat hardy....he must be dead or trapped if he is not back for breakfast. I dont know why I am not worried. It is as if I am relieved no matter the outcome. Hardy spent the night out with his bro but only his bro is here for breakfast. Very very unlike Hardy. The inpsiration was to let them stay out if they wanted, door open, last night. Downright foolish. I had not taken my meds yesterday. I took them today. So hardy may be dead or surely in trouble. Its weird: I dont really mind. Its 6am and I think i am not awake. Anyway, he avoids the war that is sure. Poor Hardy:I hope he is simply trapped and will be released soon. But I have very little hope. May Hardy come home if he is not dead. it was inspiration that let me leave the door at the back open. Hardy in the end had less survival skills than Laurel. he dies for no reason,probably killed by a coyote.