It is not even 14H00 and I feel in my body like it should be 5pm.

I am making coffee. Mother called me to tell me about the ceremony for my Godmother, anne. My bouquet was honored to be next to her urn.

It feels a little odd to have missed this funeral. But I am not close to her kids. And my godfather does not like speaking with me on the phone for long. There was no mass. It was way too hard for me to go - i have a blockage with going home in the last 10 years: I cannot do it. Especially not without hubby who needs to look after our animals. Rest in peace dear fairy godmother.

And may we see you again! amen!