The hardest thing when I was under much duress in 2016-2017, was the utter indifference of both my best friends from high school. They never ever supported me and my books. I dont know why and i found that sad and depressing and a huge let down. What I have learned from those years is that these two friends never ever loved me dearly or at least, had not for decades though i kept contact with them all this time up to 2022. Never cared. It was tough but necessary for my awakening away from such careless privileged crowds so unenlightened. And useless in showing caring love.