Know this very heavy burden of a lifetime will have been spectacular as a legend.

Nothing lost, nothing created as Chuang tzu always wrote. Except merit.

It is very clear to me that i still suffer from this life weight currently.

So know by the time I die , I am finally free from this mental health sadness.

Please dont cry for me too much- it is outrgaeous how I die but I planned it.

Dont worry: no suicide in view. I am exhausted by my trials and my body is very broken so I have simply alerted authorities that I want to die a spy. And asked them to catch a few bad guys who will kill me. It is quite simply, a set up.