It is BY FAR my only really annoying trait as fault. I can transcend my normal self and be wise and nice but at times God shows me my normal self non transcendental and I am appaled at all this youthful vanity in me. I know I have a whoredom life somewhere and I truly trulyhope it is a past life. A saint whore.

What would you accept to awaken each lifetime and purify your mind better to get closer to buddhahood and Jesus? It seems likely suddenly to me that I will have the saint whoredom soon, in my next lifetime.

But God knows the truth and I dont.

I slept three hours after a pint of cider this afternoon. I forget everything. It was vivifying though. Thank you Lord God for the nap and rest and house and family. amen! Om mani peme hung