Cold shower tonight from hubby who started insulting me becuase I thought he had said he did not want dinner, from his room, yelling down. I misheard him but his reaction was to tell me how fucked up I was, what a weirdo, and that I was a bitch etc,and fuck you fuck you fuck you....Then he slammed his room door. I cried for the second time today at his nutty aggro attitude so quick to judge me mean and abuse me with insults uncalled for.

I made the clam chowder and egg and brought them upstairs to him later. He is very fucked up in how quick he thinks always I am playing with him and being abusive and mean. He quite simply hates me. And he has a serious victim complex. I cannot believe the wrong view he has of me. He thinks I abuse him all the time! me! He is nutty and bad faith. He cannot walk since this morning so I was asking him if he wanted food and he was getting angry so i said because I thought he had said no that I would skip dinner. This led him to tell me the worst filth I have heard from him in a long while (Thank god it is usually nolonger like that): bitch, asshole, fucked up bitch, weirdo, fuck you....This sort of hostility was way the heck worst in Toronto and the first 5 years here. I became quite nutty out west and I think it was because I could no longer cope with his moods and abuses. Plus I needed more meds to cope.