I feel like I am sobering up already though, thinking about my parents and my shame of having insulted them for 10 years. Simply because I had all sort of false flashbacks crazy as they were throughout 2005. They have been so good from afar since 2006.

I went back to montreal in 2013-2014. For about 9 monhts. Huby came for 4 or 6. It was a frigid winter and the water froze in the pipes in our apartment when I was living alone with dogs.

It was a very odd time the 3 months without hubby before I joined him here on the spring day 2014.

I guess it is common to reminisce when you have drunk a whole bottle of wine.

My amazingly forgiving and understanding friend danny does not mind after apologies my crazy rants aout me marrying him in a future life where I claimed he almost kill me. It is garbage delusional imagination. Nothing real to it. Just inspiration.