I HATE when he always argues about such thing.

He does not do shit for finding Laurel during the day:I do all the work all morning.

Anyway, the cats should stay inside today.

Om shanti om!

It is also the market today.

So we may get cheese curds from the proper cheese maker, not the horrible Farm natural cheeses from agassiz who just serves us cheese CRUMBS instead of curds by now. Golden ears cheesecrafters,in maple ridge, are way nicer quality of curds. Especially fresh on thursday in poco.

I could slap hubby: he is trying to guilt trip me into letting Laurel out by saying' poor animal. let him out'. Why is he like that? It enrages me and I could literally slap the fuck out of him. I am so very very sick of his arguing on that matter or any matter. Can I slap him, God? Please. I want him to shut his mouth for once and never argue anymore. sigh. Its unbearable this guilt tripping every fucking time I keep cats in. He never ever supports it. He is so careless and rude with me. I really want him to shut the fuck up with his guilt tripping yap. He is just being cruel to me. He told me once laughing he enjoyed being cruel, that it was fun. That is when I realize he was very sick in the head.

I dont want to go to the market with him today. His arguing really kills it for me.

He bugs the shit out of me today. I am sick of him. He acts like a such a boss to us all yet he bullies and insults us for no reason when he looses it. He rarely says thank you and never says please. I am sick of his rudeness and bossiness on top of it. When he freaks out, his way of coping is to tell me what to do. Isn't that pathetic? He cannot let go of any sense of control and is rude when he is called to let go. He rebels about the laws of samsara. And about  personal growth.

I have never ever seen from up close in my relationships such a spoiled brat. His attitude is so wrong at times. And he never apologizes. then he gets fucked up from it and asks me to be nice to him after treating me like a whore and calling me for no reason, three times, a 'Fucking bitch'. get bent- you dont need my support and love, obviously.