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I was reading Thomad Merton. It does not speak to me that much that talk of Hope. Merton is huge on Hope whereas I always saw it as an illusion and hopelessness.

I had zero hope growing up and I will never know why.

but all talk of hope leaves me cold.

I like the moment, the now. Not the hope which always always faltered me all my life.

I am reading Anthony Bourdain (the ex cook and travelogue foodie) quotes extensively today. He killed himself they say. So odd; he lived likea god and had everything. They say he hung himself.

Photo: Billy circa late 2022 or beginning 2023, by BJG