To forget my trouble, I enjoined Charlotte to come to the bed with me instead of pinning to go outside to chew toxic sticks. Followed long vocalizations and chewing of me and petting and stretching and cuddling and playing with stuffed toy in the sunrays of the late afternoon, in our yellow living room. Billy joined and was superbly intense with me and vocalizing alone in my neck.  i left when, after 15 minutes one on one on the bed with me, Billy paid attention finally to his sister. they are chewing each other right now. hallelujah and amen! om mani peme hung