That is because they have access to this blog.

I made the path for them to healing....

This is why I was jealous of them like a stupid ass nigga fool: I thought their life would be eaiser because of me and stupidely, it made me angry because I had suffered so much and I thought I was more enlightened than them.

You can see the totally fucked up thinking here but it was emotional thinking of a broken anouk. I knew all along i was a fool to think that but the emotion was overwhelming. This is God telling you to take responsibility for your head and action even if you are stupid in your mind and foolish.

P.SAlso these kids are not that traumatized so far that bad- they never saw Trumps father's pedophile ring like I did.