and compared to everyone in my family, it has been true up to now.

God led me to believe all my shaky health time with them that they would ALL be luckier than me.

When you are fucked up mentally, like I truly was to think that, you are jealous. The point is with nowing you are mentally foolish but emotionally overwhelmed with jealousy? I always always asked for God's help when I changed diapers before anything. The flahsbacks of my baby and toddler years were enormous. This is becuase I was very very aware of how much traumas I had been through pretty much. Risperdal MASKS traumas for ever. It was DEFINITELY worth living a few times without it- I got SEVERELY clincially depressed simply, in 2001. In 2005 though, I went totally wild. But lived amazing sanely and at peace while on the street off meds in 2006. then I got picked up and crazy shit happened from nasty real evil fucks. This is when you need fluancol. NOT for incest falshbacks.