Especially after torture: boy did I ever explode then.

I confide for the longest time I thought my life most unfair.

2005 was when I was the most angry. Ali lived trhough me a lot that year in my energy. She helped me jumped the roof without killing myself. What I am talking about is my love for my niece gave me courage as energy. She was extermely present in my mind when I was sick in toronto. To piss me off, God would show her as super wiser than me,, better heart etc....ha ha ha...not really true but excellent practice to develop no jealousy right away even in distance with alix. ourcrazy minds are truly healers.