We discover many things from Jesus teachings even without reading christians stuff at the time too much. It is extra wisdom in a bottle.

I am totally at peace and pity all of you.Does pity towards you make you angry? It always did to me from the ferland lavigne. Being angry because your family at times is sane enough to pity you is totally crazy,of course. But the thing is I did not believe in their love and wisdom. To be honest, God was necessary in my life to really embrace pity for everyone including myself. Human pity is often not enough to me. Here is a truth I suspect: i was the 14th dalai lama or the 15th in my last life and was superbly successful and treated like a goddess or a god all along. God thought out something magical to make me do a leap of faith incredible with the garrets in this life- make me be abandoned by every single person in my family. Should I truly have hated them so much for it when they did? (They have since shown tremendous support to me though never that finacial but no one cares- there are other things than money). I think hating them was simply a lack of pity from my part. I can tell you it is WAY easier to pity my sister now than ever- once you now know how shitty her life is going to get (Gods justice and equilibirum with every sentiuent being), you forgive instantaneously your sister for being so selfish. She will be terribly terribly terribly punished.