I hav explained my newly approahced theory of christinan leaning recently on the blog. Let me reiterate.

So I must say catholicism or christianiyt and buddhism in one's life is an AWESOMELY excellent combo of set of beliefs. Everyone knows I believe in reincarnations. But I have come to believe in paradise at the end of our life, in death, for a short while too, BEFORE rebirth. In my mind, this paradise is with God only. and beyond samsara.

Everyone in my family will experience this paradise hwoever short after their life before being reborn. The tibetan call it the bardo.

i inform you all that only my mother and katia will not know this paradise yet. Maybe next lifetime. God is patient. So they go straight to hell. And feel the burn way the fuck more than any of us. That has nothing to do with us: it is God in the afterlife with each sentient beings. This is why I keep saying to everyione especially ordinary people: dont ask for an easy life- because if you are too sinful, you will make a mess and burn in hell in the after life.This is what we offer my niece too- paradise for a long while in her death. But not before a long time. If there had not been the war, she would have mourn everyone and gone nuts. I am told this is actually something she chose with God in prayer: to have a meaningful life at learning something better than her dick brain mom. She fucking sure will learn better and totally deserve her paradise THE longest of us all though it will look like a flash of love.

now, she will have a definite truth of calling beyond wealth. And especially, beyond selfishness which I totally saw in her, no offense intended.