Yes, I am too weird even to myself though loving.

I wonder if my inlaws will ever get angry at me for emailing such rants all the time....?

I have to be less stone and more self controled with my emails frantic behaviour.

I would love to speak to a friend tonight. I tried my inlaw but the line was fucked up.

Every night I finally slip under the quilt in bed I am charmed and ravished by how great it feels to be alive and in bed at night, after a good peaceful day. I dont know why I write so many emails to everyone I ever loved but I feel urgentely the call of duty to connect at least for moral support, my loved ones.