Brrrr...totally awake, drinking a cider I found after my 1.5 pint drank earlier. It is 2am now.

I have one night of sleeplessness every 3 months it seems like. So far, it has not been a habit since 2020.

I am super short of breath...I wonder if I will die looking for air. That would be tough but non traumatic and non violent. My lungs or airways could block suddenly.

Gruesome. Not to mention lung cancer for which I would ask assisted suicide.

The thoughts that go through our mind at 2am. I am so awake. It must be the two pints of cider after some days without any booze. I also drank way too much caffeinated coffees late into the afternoon.

And less cigarettes during the day  also wakes me up at night. It puts hubby to sleep. It goes to say to each their own.