I have been up for about 10.5 hours and I smoked 24 cigarettes.

I am smoking outside too. After 6-7 days of this,I should stop obsessing about smokes. This afternoon was better.

I am still reading the kids story by EB white.

In just over two weeks I will be in quebec. Caloo calay! Hurray!

I cannot believe its been 11 years. I have forgotten most ofmy 20s and especially teenagers memories.

Tonight, I had a flash of an old sunset I saw somewhere before, watching the sunset outside , while smoking. But that is a rare occasion with throwbacks and flashes from my past visual memory.

I used to have them all the time:it was divine.

I feel a bit like they say at 50:it's all downhill from now....sigh.. Hoepfully not and some things can actually get betterm, even? Lets hope so: om mani peme hung.