Way the fuck too much in my past to make sense except with nostalgia, which I never indulge nowadays in 2025, about quebec. When we die, we forget everything about our life. I have died to quebec and no one cared when I was despairing there except danny and dad. These two i really am ready to go to extremes to meet again.

I could have my dad as my pedophile dad again or danny as my crazy nutty husband who almost kills me he is so broken in that next life I see him in.

These two man are my quebec. The most solid male love I would get dirty about again to have meaning brought by God's calling with Her. From quebec. They are truly my quebec. We love our men there even when they disappoint. Neither dad nor danny has disappointed in the end in this life with me as anouk.Because of this, I am willing to suffer much from them again. worth mentioning I never suffered in this life from danny. Iam more than willing to suffer for his love next time I see him. We will simplybe much much challenged in our respective mental health together once he is allowed to be nuts for real. which he certainlyis not in this life. Iwill be there when he is nuts and needs children holy as fuck. Fear not anything you just read: dont you think this samsaric wolrd is crazy enough to be allowed to be nuts and violent ehre and there, yet redeemed, I hope with a total martyrdom for danny when he marries me. He is holy and no one cares he is nuts at me when I see himas an african who emigrates back to ottawa. This is in a long long time for me. i am not hot yet enough to handle such a crazy danny. Who however, truly loves me deep but is fucked deep as a strict muslim. Point is, THIS is great meaningful friendship in the end. I will be there when he is nuts like he was there for me from afar when I was illuminated. He truly is sweet and whenever I see Kurt Cobain's picture, a true darling sweetheart of mine in my head, I will recall a small time guy mailman in quebec with dsilexia who spoke well french and could joual it if needed be.