Yesterday, I realized I am tiny and a weird fish with loads of creativity.

and Love.

I dont want to live in dire poverty again, i dont have the courage anymore for such ordeal.

I also dont want to languish for 5-10 years in hospices of poor quality and hospitals due to lung cancer.

I also dont want to survive hubby.

Life however these days is peachy: very at peace, very pleasant. Hubby's mood and health is way better in the last 2-3 weeks.