Sigh. It is okay, I have no one to call though. BJG is very twisted in his lack of accountability and respect.

He imposes such crazy double standard on everyone's way of interacting wiht him.

He does not tolerate any flow he is not familiar with. Nor in control of.

He is set on making his own life quite miserable with me.

By seeing me as his problem for his behaviour.

He may very well die before me, his health is crap and he coughes a ton today. It would be so strange to live without him.

And I would feel like he never got better. Better enough to change and become way more zen with everyone and easily satisfied. amen.